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i had a dream...

Nov. 23rd, 2013 | 04:56 pm
mood: boredbored
music: massive attack - mezzanine

murder has become very common. almost everybody was a murderer, including my fictional girlfriend, who had killed three people. i was scared and alone. i was trying to reconcile my feelings about murder with my feelings for my fictional girlfriend. it was difficult. everybody's terrible except for you, of course. and i was rather turned on by my girlfriend the murderer.
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i had a dream...

Oct. 16th, 2013 | 03:16 pm
mood: boredbored
music: boards of canada - tomorrow's harvest

i'm some sort of a prophet and this one holy woman isn't pleased with me. she calls me a false prophet. later we're in a church and the preacher introduces a group of prophets who call themselves "mouths gaping wide open." which i thought was kind of a stupid name for a group of prophets... sounds more like a rock band. and it's a bit presumptuous. they say some stuff and nobody's all that interested. in a desperate tone, the woman requests from anybody in the audience to kill me. nobody gets up. she runs towards me and tries to stab me, i start trying to stab her, then i wake up before anybody wins the fight.

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i had a dream...

Apr. 17th, 2013 | 03:44 pm
mood: boredbored
music: tim hecker - an imaginary country

i was in some kind of classroom when my old friend matteo walked in, went and did something in the corner, then suddenly a really loud alarm went off. so loud. like it was amplified. it hurt my ears. then i saw he had some sort of device attached to the alarm that makes it louder. cut to a new room. matteo comes in and does it again. cut to a new room... i ask matteo "how many times do you think you can do this before they, like, throw you in jail?" and matteo says "i wonder..."

cut to some other kid doing the same thing. apparently matteo has made this device really popular. a bunch of these people are in a group, wearing white robes, and are making it their mission to do this as much as they can before getting stopped. matteo says he's off to do his work and me and some guy i was with ask if we can come with him. he says sure. cut to some kind of church basement where there's some sort of an event going on. matteo puts this device on an alarm... i forgot to say the device has a timer. everyone thinks it's a bomb and they freak out.

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i had a dream...

Apr. 6th, 2013 | 11:18 pm
mood: boredbored
music: clint mansell and the kronos quartet - requiem for a dream ost

i was at a sleepover with my friend arthur and my friend cas. also p diddy was there. i was dipping a stuffed monkey in cheese dip and eating it.

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i had a dream...

Oct. 23rd, 2012 | 04:32 pm
mood: boredbored
music: 65daysofstatic - the fall of math

i was living in some sort of a hotel or something with a boardwalk. i was at an attached general store and for some reason i decided to get one of them lottery tickets where you scratch off the grey stuff. i won $13 000. i was ecstatic, running down the boardwalk telling everyone i saw, all of whom i know, "i won $13 000!" and i knew i wasn't dreaming because everything just felt so realistic. and then i woke up. i fell back asleep and then realized i had won the mcdonalds monopoly game. i was all like "okay the last one was a dream but this time i know i won 'cause everything just feels so realistic" and then i woke up.

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i had a dream...

Jul. 28th, 2012 | 11:10 pm
mood: boredbored
music: Grails - Burning Off Impurities

so i'm in a movie and there's some sort of cruel joke being played on me. i keep talking to these people but then i go inside and the doctor tells me i was just having a conversation with myself. he shows me a video of me talking to myself when somebody else calls out "now hold on a minute!" and shows a video of me talking to people. the movie is shut off and i'm observing a classroom. the teacher asks the class if i was crazy... half the class says i was crazy, the other half of the class says i was being tricked. i happen to know for a fact that i was being tricked.

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i had a dream...

May. 30th, 2012 | 11:08 pm
mood: boredbored
music: Gregor Samsa - 55:12

i signed a deal with the devil to make myself great. the devil assures me he can destroy me at any minute if he doesn't like what i'm doing with it, and he says there's a good chance of him doing it and going on to somebody else. he tells me i am expendable and fills me with fear.

i'm living with the fact that i'm great but also that i may be destroyed at any time. i feel a little bit scared all the time.

this deal also comes with super powers, apparently. i used them to jump a coffee table in front of my friends. in the basement of the house i grew up in.

the devil walks in and gives me a stern glare. i freak out and wake up.

the devil was rather gay, for the record.

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movin' me foooorrwaaards...

Apr. 30th, 2012 | 01:23 am
mood: indescribable
music: Brian Eno - Here Come the Warm Jets

every once in awhile i like to take a mental photograph of a little place in time. it's always a seemingly normal place in time. the first one was of me getting out of bed when i was... 7? 8? i looked at the quilted blanket i had on the floor beside my bed as i was getting out of bed one morning and decided to make a snapshot. then another one, a few weeks later, when i was sitting on said blanket playing kirby, then another a few days later, waiting in the car while my father brushed the snow off the windows before he took me to school... then there are a few others but that's enough for now...

just a little piece of nostalgia i can enjoy in the future. i have a thing for nostalgia... it's why my favourite band is boards of canada. no matter how insignificant the event, it just feels so pleasant to think about a moment in the past. it fills me with warmth. no matter how inane the moment is it feels pleasant to think about it.

i was... 15? 16? i was living in the basement at my parent's house in brandon. it was a typical night. i was on the computer for a few hours before i went to bed. i was listening to brian eno's "driving me backwards" as i got up from my chair to go brush my teeth and get ready for bed. after i was finished i went back to my computer, "driving me backwards" still playing. i took one of these "mental snapshots" and suddenly i felt something... kind of like a remembering mixed with a deja vu... not a normal deja vu... it felt like this was going to be a deja vu but it wasn't yet. i felt a lot of complicated emotions that I couldn't quite decipher at the time. i had a vision of myself in some unfamiliar environment, taking off my shirt...

cut to today, some 8 or 9 years later. i was taking off my clothes, getting ready for bed, listening to "driving me backwards" and really feeling the texture of it... like it was the first time i had listened to it. i take a mental photograph. suddenly i realize i am in the vision i had as a teenager, taking off my shirt, getting ready for bed. i finally decipher what i was feeling. i was feeling something epic...

everything i was feeling was... i'm living with my parents again waiting for something to happen. everybody believes i'm insane but i know it's real. it's real i tells you!! i know something is real. something very... very easy to disbelieve. i'm sober and have been for quite a long period of time and it's starting to grate on me. when i had first seen this vision i had never done any drugs but was aspiring to be a heavy pot smoker. now i'm sober from pot, psychedelics, and most importantly ketamine... my soul mate was dead... and most importantly it's real!! it's fucking real, i tells you!! why won't anybody believe me!?

a very complicated emotion. when i first saw it when i was 16 i just interpreted it as "i'm older, i'm not high, i'm living with my parents again, i'm really into psychedelic pop and i'm dark." my facial expression changed a little bit the day of the vision... it became... "darker." and has since then become even more dark. my facial expression has changed as though i'm living in the future.

the future... is... eventful...

7 months, 22 days to go...

it's drivin' me backwards.

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i had a dream...

Apr. 20th, 2012 | 12:07 am
mood: boredbored
music: Clann Zú - Black Coats & Bandages

so i'm jumping on a trampoline with some random guy i don't think i know. we noticed his dog drinking out of his water dish then getting all dizzy and out of it. some guy then goes and drinks the water to see what's up with that. then he's all like "dude you gotta try this" so i go over and drink some of the water and it just tastes like some kind of vile chemical. then it feels like i'm on some kind of a deleriant. a weak deleriant. some guy just keeps drinking it and drinking it and he throws up all over the place and then goes back and keeps drinking it. skip to us being in his basement, which is actually my old basement. he keeps drinking it and comparing it to other drugs. talking about how after awhile he can control the hallucinations. i'm all like dude stop drinking it. and i can still taste the chemical in my mouth. and some guy just won't shut up about how great this is. it was disgusting. then i wake up.

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i had a dream...

Mar. 13th, 2012 | 05:22 pm
mood: boredbored
music: Aereogramme - Seclusion

i had just finished opening a restaurant in my old apartment with my old friend jarrod, when suddenly i was a hippie grunge rocker played by some guy with long blonde hair. somebody familiar... i don't know who he is but he isn't me. he blacked out and was told by god, played by james franco, that he was in a coma. god tells my character once he gets out he gets famous and he has three good records out before he dies at age 27. he says he dies from a heart failure because of extreme heroin addiction. my character had never previously done heroin but decides to take it up after he wakes up in order to drown his sorrows about dying at age 27.

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